augh, it's horrible.

I sleep in so late, then at night I can't sleep, so I stay up late.

Then I sleep in more then stay up more and so on and so forth.

It's been like this for about a week, so haha, even if I "go to bed" at the jolly good time of 10:00 pm, because I CAN, I can't sleep and stay up with my eyes closed going "this is so stupid" so it defeats the purpose. So I stay up which in turn causes me to sleep in which in turn causes me to stay up and so on and so forth.

I mean, I would get up early, cuz, yeah I can, but then I get up and it's all "what's the point. I'm not going to do anything today anyway. plus I'm tired" hit snooze. sleep again.

Drawing only does so much for me. I mean, sure I'm working on three pictures at once and have a bunch planned, but I can only spend so much of my time a day drawing and colouring. I'm a natural multitasker. Some part of me demands I do at least three things at once. If I don't, i suddenly lose interest. It's excruciating. That why when i'm on SAI, i leave the room at least thrice in a hour to idunno, walk around the house in search of something to distract me. I distract myself, then I return and go back to what I was doing earlier.

yeah, there's gaming. but meh, for some reason, I find Fire Emblem 6 to be a bit of a chore as compared to 7 and 9. I dunno, maybe it's my unwillingness to relate to the characters. FE6 is the first Fire Emblem game I've played where I noticed recruitable units on the other side, and said "wtf, I'm not going to bring out my lvl 1 nomad to recruit the other slightly better nomad, nor am I going to waste precious experience points for my good cavalier by putting him away to bring out that overpowered paladin i never use to recruit that lvl 1 myrmidon i'm never going to use." Yeah, take that Fir. I killed you. With Lance.

To get a more comparable way of how I usually play, in 7, to get Farina, I rescued her with Hector before recruiting her so she wouldn't steal my experience, and actually whittled my time away on that map searching for stuff to sell so I could raise the 20 000 gold to recruit her. And then I didn't use her because I was so attached to Fiora, even though i knew Farina was the better unit overall. I dunno, i used to have this obsession with recruiting everybody possible and then refusing to let anybody important die. That how I was. And now I'm at FE6 and it's all... "eeehhh... let's just get that map over with. Ooh a recruitable unit. Hmm level 1 myrmidon. No thank you, I have Rudger." *killing spreee*. It's like I've lost my good will while playing. Maybe it's because I've been watching too much "Zero Punctuation" and the video game cynicism has sunk into me, i don't know. I should really play 7 or 9 again and get that back.

Anyways, where was I...? Right, my life is on endless repeat. It's like a music playlist on endless loop and nobody's bothered to press the shuffle button. I've actually lost track of the days. If the Michael Jackson memorial wasn't today, I'd have no idea it's Tuesday. _{Goodness, rest in peace MJ, you were truly an entertainment king.}

Not to mention the date on my watch is wrong, but it's too complicated for me to understand how to fix it without finding the manual. _{stupid thing thinks every month has 31 days. It's augh.}

Anyway, I've run out of things to say, so I'll just fall silent now.

*falls silent*

EDIT: You know what. I'm so bored, I'm going to sleep on the couch tonight, just to see what it's like. _{i'm so going to get into trouble for that.}